Everyone has their vices and for me one of those vices like a lot of guys is I like to watch internet pornography. I'm a huge proponent of it and think that a couple of naked people rolling around is pretty harmless.
However, despite me being pretty outspoken about how I think it is no big deal I still feel like shit after I get done rubbing one out if I've been watching porn. I don't know what it is but whenever I get done masturbating to whoever the newest flotation device is I get this feeling of grossness.
Maybe its because I hate myself. The very thought that I am masturbating to someone on screen and not taking care of this physical need with a girlfriend, wife or bar maid just makes me feel low.
In all truthfulness it probably really doesn't have anything to do with me lacking a person in my life to dispense my cum into. No probably what it is, is me feeling like shit because 9 times out 10 I'm not really that super horny and I'm just doing it out of boredom.
If I get bored I just watch porn and beat off furiously for 3,5.10,15, maybe even 20-minutes because its something for me to do.
So the reason I really feel shameful and gross when I get done watching isn't because I think it's wrong to watch it but because I do it because it helps me forget how bored I truly am.
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